Read: Psalm 37:1-8, Psalm 37:23-24, Psalm 37:39-40, Proverbs 3:5-7, Philippians 4:6
When David was older, he writes Psalm 37 and begins with these words: Do not fret. After years spent as king, stressing and planning and praying and running, David shares with us that the things that make us worry in life aren’t worth worrying about. I appreciate his wisdom...I just wish I knew how to apply it to my own heart.
I am a dreamer. If you’ve been walking through this study with me, you can tell that I like to set goals, have a plan, and feel like I’m in control. But I fret. A lot. I’ve been living like life's one big puzzle that I’ve got to piece together right this very second because if I don’t, I will have run out of time. I feel like an hourglass, and I’m scared that every moment not spent running after these goals are moments wasted in my life. I don’t want to get to the end and miss the big picture.
For the past six years, I’ve had this One. Big. Goal. It seems like everything that I’ve done has been to reach this milestone, to have this dream come to fruition. While this goal was birthed from my “Use Me, God” prayer, it has become this thing that causes me to fret because I have no idea if or when it will ever be accomplished. I’ve allowed my desire to become this dominant force that guides my heart and my mind. This isn’t healthy, and fasting has made me realize that I’ve got to let go of this thing that is controlling me.
On Day 7, we talked about how in the beginning God created. When He created you and when He created me, He breathed His holy breath on us and gave each of us desires in our hearts. Some of us have yet to discover what we desire, others are still figuring it out, and then others are living it out. Even though my desire has been realized and God has provided for me in so many ways, I am not living the way David cautions me to live. After he says “do not fret” he goes on to pen some of the most beautiful words in all of Scripture:
Instead of living life chasing my desires, God beckons for me to trust Him. Trust is the only path to peace. I’m beginning to realize that I will miss the big picture He is painting for my life if I try to plan it myself instead of trusting in Him. When I choose to trust instead of trying to control, these are the moments that I commune with God most intimately and sweetly.
God is continually teaching me that while I have desire, I must dwell in Him. In Hebrew, the word dwell means to lodge, reside. I would much rather reside in the house of the Lord than lodge there temporarily. Wouldn’t you?
When we dwell in God through prayer and thanksgiving, we feed off His faithfulness instead of fret over what we are supposed to be doing with our lives. Dwelling and trusting leads to a life of delight, contentment, and joy in the journey, not a frenzied race to the finish line. This is the way of the LORD. This is how we will truly receive the desires of our hearts.
On this final day of Week Two, why don’t we let go and trust in Him? Give God your desires today and stop running. Rest in Him, dwell in His land, and wait with an undivided heart for His love to wash over you, fill you up, and never let you go.